Ok, for the longest time
I WAS ANGRY….INSANE ANGRY….CRAZY ANGRY….PSYCOTIC ANGRY
But I think the moments gone. I am better. I am more human. I am sane
I am thinking of greener pastures. I am thinking about life. I am spending more time with family.
What I am not doing is thinking about what happened with me. I am trying to forgive and slowly forget. I am trying to not make a big deal out of it.
I am learning that its ok to fail…..
Although it wasn’t really my fault, but its ok. Its not the end of the world. It never is.
So what if my GPA sucks. So what if it really fell this year.
Does this mean I fail as a student? As a designer? As a person who wants to make a difference in today’s world. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD. Gandhi’s words are my bible these days.
So I look at my batch mates who didn’t graduate. Shouldn’t I be thankful enough that I wasn’t one of them? I graduated they didn’t. I marched down the lane, my head high up, my shoulders wide open. They got neither of this. So what if my teachers think I SUCK.
I DON’T! I KNOW I DON’T….so what if they recommended their fav’s and not me. Doesn’t this give more reason to prove them wrong? Doesn’t this become the highlight in my life to prove something that I have been wanting to for years?
I thought I was nothing. My teachers discouraged me, told me I wasn’t good enough. But the jury thought otherwise. They saw potential my teachers couldn’t.
So I told myself not to be angry anymore…. If you can’t beat them, you join them. So I inspired myself… I taught myself…I corrected myself…..
And I think things are improving for me... Slowly and gradually….alhamdolah…. they are……..and Inshallah I will reach where I have been wanting to………